I am undefined
I do not borrow an identity along with an occupation
The masks I’ve worn to collect paychecks are never permanent
The whereness of my location is accidental
Even as I care about the land I steward
I am not a neighborhood or a place on a map
My markers are all proxies and approximate
I am not a category to be boxed with precision
Or measured on five or seven point scales into a fixation of order
I am not my genitalia
Neither penile nor labial
My essential being transcends the limitations
Of your labels
Even my eyes are just a temporary covering
My opinions are fluid
I march with an army today that I will overthrow tomorrow
I look and listen for new information
That rearranges my understanding of this existence
I give myself to the mystery of eternal creation
Not to the fearful faith of the unimaginative
I resist attempts to declare sides
To coalesce into one thing
When another seems like a shifting possibility
I am not a definition or a singular role
I roll with anticipation into newness
Or circle back to tread the same path with new shoes
And if I carry my history within each point of consciousness
I also carry the potential and possibility
Of all the undone actions that might have been
Or are yet to be
I will not answer when you ask me who I am
I am not a singularity, just a wave’s crystalline vibration
I do not believe in binary worlds of black and white
But in the magic of becoming
I flirt with post quantum transitions
Into the nothingness of the unlimited
Undelineated into excessive space
Where I remain undefined
David Trudel © 2013